Relaxing weekend

This weekend was so relaxing.  J's birthday was on Wednesday.  Saturday we headed to eastern Washington for the Toby Keith concert.  I booked a room for us at the Cave B Inn right next door to the Gorge. The Gorge is a beautiful place to see a concert.  It's in the middle of nowhere overlooking the Columbia river.  We headed out early on Saturday so we could visit the winery and just relax.  The concert was amazing. Toby played until 11:30 at night and our seats were awesome.  They were 5 rows from the stage!  Such a great time.  Saturday we are headed down to San Francisco for our anniversary.  Another fun weekend awaits. 

Hysteroscopy is done

No longer am I nervous about going under anesthesia.  In the past 7 months I've been put under anesthesia 3 times.  I think I'm a pro at it now.  J loves when I come out of anesthesia because I say funny things.  This time he asked me how I was feeling and I said, "I hope I'm not hungover tomorrow." Only me. :)

Everything went fine with the surgery.  We even got to take pictures home haha.  I went home and slept for the afternoon.  I'm back at work today just taking it easy.  I was a little crampy this morning but nothing too bad.  Today is J's birthday and he has to work.  I'm heading to the station to have dinner with him.  This weekend we are celebrating with Toby Keith at the Gorge. Can't wait for that!

New day is Tuesday

They rescheduled my hysteroscopy for next Tuesday. Dr M is on vacation so it will be with a different doctor.  Now instead of being off next Friday I'll have to take Tuesday off.  So much for a long weekend. :)

Bleah!

So I doubt I am going to do the hysteroscopy on Tuesday. I was supposed to get my period on Thursday. Here it is Saturday and it's still not here.  I'm going to call the doctor on Monday and figure out what the next steps are.  Our doctor is going on vacation on the 10th and won't be back until the 24th.  Looks like we probably won't be doing the surgery this month.

A nice break away

Chicago was such a fun time.  It was a nice break away from everything.

Friday

I woke up at 4:45 in the morning to finish up some last minute stuff around the house and make sure I was out of the house by 6:30.  I had to drop our dog off at the Pets Hotel right at 7.  I got there a few minutes before and thankfully they were already open.  It didn't take long to get her checked in and I was on my way to the airport. Picked J up at work and we headed through security.  Our flight was supposed to leave at 8:45 am but it didn't end up leaving until 10:30. We were delayed for mechanical issues. We were supposed to land in Chicago at 2:40 and with the delay we landed at 3:05 I believe.  The pilot was hauling ass! We quickly got our bags and headed on the L downtown to the hotel.

The Palmer House Hilton was amazing.   It is an older hotel but it had so much charm.  When we checked in they had rooms available on the executive level that included breakfast every morning and appetizers in the evening for an additional $25 a day.  We jumped on it.  It was a great savings for us because we took advantage of the breakfast every morning.  We dropped our bags off in our room and got a few appetizers to tide us over until dinner.  We jumped on a bus and headed to Navy Pier.  It was so humid the entire time we were there but at least it was sunny. :)  We went up on the ferris wheel and walked all over Navy Pier.  Went to Billy Goat Tavern and had our first old style of the trip. That night we had dinner at Harry Carays. Oh man the steak was so good.  We ended up getting back to the hotel about 11.

Saturday

Our first day at Wrigley! Game was at 12:05 and we got to Wrigley a little before 10.  It was nice to walk around before it got too crowded. We headed to the Cubby Bear and had a beer.  We walked around outside the stadium taking a bunch of pictures.  Went to Murphy's for an Old Style.  The area started to get packed with fans. It was amazing to see all the Cubs fans.  Everyone was pumped for the game.  We met up with my cousins and headed in.  For this game we had seats right behind home plate under the overhang. It worked out perfectly because we were in the shade and there was a nice breeze coming in.  For dinner we went to an amazing pizza place.  J says Chicago pizza ruined him.  He'll never be able to eat mediocre pizza again.  We headed to the Willis (Sears) tower and enjoyed the view.  The sky deck is crazy! I can't believe you're standing on plexiglass 103 stories up. Unbelievable.

Sunday

Game 2.  We got to the stadium right as it opened so we could watch batting practice. Unfortunately due to the rain earlier in the morning there was no bp.  We were happy to see the tarp coming off.  J was worried the game would be rained out. We had seats 10 rows behind the Cubs dugout. They were amazing seats.  Such an awesome view. The game went into extra innings and the Cubs won. We got to sing Go Cubs Go twice in a row this trip!  After the game we went to my cousins house for a bbq.  It was nice to sit out and chat with everyone.  About 7 the humidity finally started to calm down.

Monday

Our last day in Chicago.  We had a tour of Wrigley at 10am. So awesome. We went in the visitors clubhouse, on the field, in the bleachers, got our picture taken in front of the ivy, sat in the Cubs dugout.  It was a great hour and a half.  We got so many great pictures of the stadium.  Our trip was coming to an end and it was pretty sad.  We had so much fun. J fell in love with the city. He was already planning our next trip back.  We went to the Cubby bear and had another beer then headed to Goose Island Brewery in search of Cubby Bear Blue.  Unfortunately they didn't have it.  Before getting on the L and heading back to the hotel to get our stuff...we had a Chicago dog. Pretty sure J enjoyed it because he ate it in less than 30 seconds. We took the L back to OHare and checked in for our flight home. We lucked out and we upgraded to first class. It was so nice having the extra leg room for the flight.

Not what I wanted to hear

I had an appointment yesterday morning with Dr M for an u/s.  There was a little confusion as she thought that I hadn't gotten my period yet and that's why I was in.  I told her that when I was called with my 3rd beta results they said I should set up an appointment.  She did an u/s to see how everything looked.  She found 2 things that looked like polyps.  She asked if I had time to do a saline u/s.  Basically they use a catheter to put saline in the uterus and they are able to see if there are abnormalities.  Dr M had looked at previous u/s and saw something was there but it wasn't big. 


So they do the saline u/s and sure enough I have 2 polyps.  They think they might have grown faster because of the hormones.  Basically the polyps will stop the egg from implanting because it doesn't give the egg much room.  I'm tentatively scheduled for another hysteroscopy on August 9.  I'm just ready for all this difficultness to be done with.


I felt a little sad going up in the elevator to my appointment.  I would be right around 7 weeks.  We would have already had an u/s to see our baby.  Looking at the u/s monitor it was sad because there was no baby there.  I'm trying hard to stay positive but it's just so difficult.  I know God only gives us what He thinks we can handle but I'm about ready to throw in the towel here.  I don't know how much more I can take. 

Two Weeks

Two weeks ago today was the happiest day of my life.  I woke up and got a positive.  Last night this thought popped into my head.  I couldn't believe it.  I actually jumped up and down. I immediately called J at work.  It was 6am and thankfully he was up.  He could barely understand me because I was crying and laughing.  I called my Mom on the way into work and told her the great news.  Not once did I think tht it wouldn't "stick."


Two weeks seems like such a long time.  I've distanced myself from everything baby related.  I used to be active on a message board.  It was a great support group. Others going through the same problems I am.  I haven't been able to go back there in close to 2 weeks.  I think I've turned into "one of those" girls.  The ones that get sad when someone else is pregnant.  I'm happy for them.  It's just a reminder that it didn't or might not ever work for us.  And that part sucks.  There was always the "next" time thing for us.  We always had another plan.  And now we are at the end. There is no other plan.  


I was supposed to call my IVF coordinator on Tuesday to discuss what happened and next steps.  I haven't made the call yet.  I know we need to discuss it.  Part of me wonders why *I* have to call.  Why can't they call me?  


Next Friday we leave for Chicago for 4 days.  It was a last minute trip.  Literally.  We decided on Sunday to go and booked everything on Monday.  It will be nice to get away.  


I started school on Monday.  I'm already behind in my class.  I didn't realize I needed two different books. When I went to look at the course info there was only 1 book listed.  I discovered on Tuesday that I was missing a book. I ordered it on Amazon and had to pay an extra $20 for expedited shipping.  Thankfully my instructor is okay with this because others have had massive delays with getting their books.  I just hope the book is delivered today so I can get my assignments done.  

Great distractions

Friday night I went to the NKOTBSB concert and had a great time.  It was such an awesome distraction.  The concert was one of the best I've ever been to.  I took so many pictures.  Our seats were awesome.  We were about 20 rows from the stage.  They played for 2.5 hours and there were no breaks.  Switched off from NKOTB to BSB.  I have a new appreciation for the BSB after seeing them live.  I think AJ needed to take his ritalin though, he was just a bit too hyper for me. :)  It was a fun evening of reliving my youth.

Saturday I had to go back to the doctor for more blood work.  My hcg levels were negative.  No big surprise there.  I need to call and talk to our IVF coordinator on Tuesday to figure out next steps.  From the drugs I have had really bad cramps. I know, a little too much info.  It hasn't been the best time the last few days.  I must say, I haven't cried or felt like crying for a little bit.  I think it's been 24+ hours.  That right now is an accomplishment I'll take.  


As our favorite Ghost Hunters say....on to the next.